2010-11-01T22:28:00.000+08:00

Blasting To : P.Diddy feat Christina Aguilera - Tell Me

Upon listening to the song above, it actually can relate to the situation I'm in now. Had a fling for a guy which I label him as nameless. He's known as the Chong Boon MacD rider. Someone with dimple, which I really like guys having dimples, someone who went for delivery with his RayBan shades. And someone who smiles at me when he sees me, which actually makes me feel like a shy chicken. I melted. I hope this is just a feeling every girls has in themselves as girls tend to be more vain. Girls are girls. But, I know a few days or weeks back, I actually had broken off with a guy in my school ; my classmate. Not someone my race, but other. Been together for 4 months, and planning to live happily ever after, just like all girls wanting to live in a fairytale. Eventually, we ended there. We ended a few weeks after our 4 monthsary. We were once together in Secondary 2, but I asked for a break back then. We got back together again in Secondary 3 and again I'm the one doing the same thing I did in Secondary 2 ; leaving him. After this relationship ended, I told myself that I don't think I will be able to get back to him once again. Like a phrase that says, "Once bitten, twice shy". In addition, I also told myself that maybe if I had enough of guys, I might fall for a girl next ; my juniors. Like I said, girls are girls. My juniors are also living in a single live and girls like us, tend to have more fun before anything happens. So, back to the story above, what I was trying to say here is that I might not fall for a guy for now. I want the love that is given by God. Not love from demons. I want God to present me the right marriage partner for me and not some break-patch relationship. I just have to leave this to him above ; God. I hope he will guide me to the way that it is supposed to be. Now, I will show what I meant by the song I'm listening to can relate to my situation.

Chorus of the song :

Boy, I got my eyes on you.

Tell me what you wanna do.

I can picture you in my room, until the morning.

I don't even know your name.

Boy I need to know your name.

I'm hoping that you feel the same.

LynJrm